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blind man walkin’

For the last 6 months or so, I’ve been wearing my glasses, almost exclusively. I used to be a contacts guy. Terrible eyesight. Thought I’d have the addiction to disposable discs of plastic to place onto my eyeballs for the rest of my days. But lately I’ve been going “blind” more frequently, and I’ve been enjoying learning how to be more comfortable without the aid of seeing-aides.

The crippling attachment to contacts started when I was young but the gateway drug was glasses.. I started wearing glasses in 3rd grade, and I got some of the biggest, dorkiest glasses you’ve ever seen. But going into 4th grade, my parents put me in youth football and the glasses quickly became a major liability — meaning they broke almost instantaneously. It was the 90s, so you know RecSpecs were on the menu. I wore them for exactly half a season before they were unceremoniously forgotten about until now.

By the time 6th grade rolled around, I was able to whine sufficiently to get my parents to get me contact lenses. You know — for sports. Not because I didn’t want to look like a bespectacled dweeb -slash- football star stud genius guy.

From then on, I have worn contact lenses for over 98% of the days until now.

The thing that got me to switch to being a glasses guy was getting comfortable with not being able to see clearly. Another lesson learned at BJJ!

At this point I almost prefer not being able to see when I’m on the mats. It’s kind of liberating, really.

I know I’m in a safe space (floor and wall mats), with people that are generally looking out for one another, and all I really need to be able to see if the technique demonstration, which I can just get close and squint my eyes for lol

But the practicing of not being able to see - and not having anxiety about it. It feels good to do. I find myself spending more time at home without my glasses on.

Go practice changing your perspective on shit. It feels good and it’ll help you expand your field of experiences.